Hey my name's Rachel.
I'm not sure how to share my story so I'll just put it out there. I'm not looking for attention or anybody to feel sorry for me just looking for some help or advice. Almost 5 years ago now I had a stillborn baby it was a shock. And I don't think I'm over the fact yet that I lost her. Not that long ago I was sexually abused from my ex and it made me lose another child. I feel depressed and I don't know how to shake it off. The lies that come out of my mouth is unbearable and the people I'm close to I'm losing or they don't understand so can't speak about it much to them. I hate myself and the way I look with how everything has turned out. I'm taking life day by day but it just doesn't get any better. I'm just not sure how to handle everything.
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