I'm in a long term relationship but my head is somewhere else.
I have been in a relationship for over a year. I am currently battling depression and anxiety and have been doing so for years. I've tried to explain this to my boyfriend but it's very hard for him to understand. I push him away at every opportunity. I talk down to him. I push all my hate on to him and I can see how it affects him but sometimes I can't stop myself. I feel trapped and suffocated and misunderstood. I don't mean to take it out on him, but I lash out at the people that are closest to me. I don't even know if I want to be close to him anymore but I can't end it. My mind is trapping me in this horrible situation, and whatever way I go about it I will have done the wrong thing.
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